Archive | March 2012

I Am…

 I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born.

Isaiah 44:2

I Am…

I am a Christian,

Seeking stronger faith and enjoying a relationship with Christ

I am a woman,

With gentle beauty from the creator Himself

I am a mother,

With hope for the future of mankind, a nurturer

I am a daughter,

Honest and respectful to those in authority

I am an aunt and a sister,

A guidance counselor with words of comfort

I am a friend,

A patient listener with love and laughter to share

I am one thing to many and many things to one

I am a miracle of creation,

Molded and guided with His loving hands

I rejoice simply because I am!


Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. –1 Peter 3:3-4



Reality verses illusion
The world with its pretty packages
All tied up with bows
Begging to be sought after

Society beckons
Perfection and nothing more
Destruction in its path
Concerned not for the wake it leaves behind

Nothing but objects
A mirror telling us who we should be
Yelling we are not good enough
Shouting that we don’t belong

Magazines scream perfection
Dictating the norm
Does it really exist
Who decides what beauty really is

The world and it’s illusions ravage
But no more
Stand up and revel in the real you
The beautiful person who has always been

As I sit at home tonight I am blessed to be able to enjoy the company of several teenage girls.  God has richly blessed me indeed for I am actually cool to them!  Who knew?  My son doesn’t always see me as cool, though I may get lucky once and a while, but these bright, beautiful young ladies think I am pretty cool, and thus I enjoy the opportunity to hear their stories, their struggles and their battles with the ever increasing challenge to fit in.  We have all been there at some point in our lives, but it all seems so much deeper, so much more hard hitting than when I was enduring it.

I am pained by what I hear…stories I cannot share for they are a part of their private world, but their struggles are not isolated instances.  Oh no, the students I teach, the young teens at my church, teen children of friends and family….their struggle is the same.  The desire to be wanted and accepted leads to so much pain and agony as they come to the realization that unless they change in some way, they will never fit in, never be popular, never be all they think they need to be in this teen angst stage life.  God has indeed created us with a desire to commune, to be in relationships with others.  That is how we learn the most valuable lessons and skills in life.  We learn patience, we learn how to love and how to accept love, and we learn how to let go and move on.  But what if you don’t “fit  in”?  What if you feel rejected and are ridiculed, picked on, hit or beat up, and constantly told in some way shape or form that you are not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, athletic enough to fit in?

Sadly, the result is not a bright one.  A teens mind is not filled with years of wisdom and knowledge, but is based on limited knowledge and understanding surrounded with  such raw emotion that it is overwhelming.  They become anorexic or bulimic to transform into what they think  the world views as beautiful.  They use steroids to beef up and diuretics to throw up.  They slice their arms or legs to get rid of the pain of being rejected leaving more scars that remind them of how often they are left out.  They bring guns to school to inflict harm on those who tease and ridicule them, selfishly killing out of pain and anger.  They end their own lives in the last ditch effort to be free from the desperate struggle to fit in.  For what?!  All this to prove to someone else that they are worthy to be accepted, worthy to be loved by another!  I am sickened by the lack of compassion our world has these days!  The amount of education without heart that exists in our schools is unbelievable.  The distance between parent and chid is ever widening, which saddens my heart.  The influence of the perfectionist views so blatantly placed before us day in and day out as we watch television, read magazines, and surf the web is outrageous!  I stand amazed that someone, somewhere has the ability to tell us what is wrong with us…to tell our kids that they aren’t good enough, that they don’t belong, and they aren’t normal?  Who decides what normal is anyway?!?

So long as we are human, we will desire to belong.  God created us to belong, but we look for it in all the wrong places.  There is only one place we truly belong, one place we can teach our children, and the teens who think we are cool, to run to when this world rejects them….the arms of God!  He knows these teens, knows how beautiful they are, how valuable their worth truly is.  Are you showing your teen, or the teens that you have an influence on, who God is? Are you equipping them with a fortress to run to when the world attacks them?  Are you taking them to the foot  of the cross so that they can understand how much they are loved?  Are you filling their hearts with scripture so they can combat the lies that Satan throws at them?  If not my friends, than you are setting them up to fall.  For when the darkness grows, and it will, they need to know how to find the light!

I pray that we are teaching our teens who God is and reaching out to them to mentor, to teach, to love, and to accept them just as they are, right where they are in that moment.  I pray that we offer them grace when they fall and that we extend forgiveness freely with love.  May you indeed be the light in the life of a struggling teen. God bless!

Free in Christ

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. –Isaiah 40:30-31

Free in Christ

I flit
I fly
Soaring on wings of eagles
I flutter
I float
Gliding on wings of butterflies
I hover
I hurry
Zipping by on wings of hummingbirds
I dart
I rise
Ascending toward the heavens
I persevere
I pursue
Lying in wait for what God can do
I persist
I carry on
For in Christ I can do all things

There are just those moments in life where freedom echoes through the heart and there is a sense of peace rarely experienced in this Journey of Life.  These moments are indeed a blessing from God; a reminder that He is with us, that He is control, He knows the plan, and He holds us in the palm of His mighty and strong hand.  Though life throws slings and arrows at our hearts or attempts to break us down with lies, corruption, and self deception, still, somehow, someway, the beautiful, still, small voice of God drifts into the darkness of human frailty and brings light.  A light so strong and intense that there is no doubt, not even a hint of doubt that all will be fine.  His presence overwhelms, bringing answers, clarity, comfort, direction and peace to our ever wandering hearts.  God is so awesome and here in this moment I revel in that!  What the world tries to steal God returns to us ten fold.  Hold on my dear friends, my brothers and sisters in Christ, for your peace will come!  Trust in Him and let Him cover all the chaos and confusion, the darkness of your heart with His light.  May you let Him lead the way, light the path you follow, and may you set your heart on Him and the eternal promise, for this world is indeed temporary and passing.  All my love.

One Life to Live

This is the day the LORD has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. –Psalm 118:24

One Life to Live

Delight in the day
Enjoy the moment
For you have only one life to live
Savor the special times
Relax in God’s love
Offer heart and hands, always give
Bask in the beauty
Appreciate the little things
Let go of wrongs done and forgive
Welcome the trials
Pray through the tribulations
Allow God to work through and revive
Value lessons learned
Reflect the journey past
For you have only have one life to live

So thankful for another day to live.  Yes, there are trials, there are tribulations, there are even tough decisions to make that may hurt others or offend, but still I have life.  I am blessed with breath.   I am blessed with eyes that see the beauty of a rose in bloom and trees with sparkling buds of life springing forth.  I am blessed with ears to hear the laughter of children echo through the playground and the singing of birds celebrating the warmer weather.   I am blessed with family and friends who love me, though it is imperfect, they still love.  I am blessed to have a home in which to sleep, a  bed with cozy covers to keep me from the cold nights.  I am blessed with food to eat, even if I gain weight when I do.  I am blessed with fresh water to drink, chlorine or other oddities may be there, but they do not make me sick nor does it have parasites.  I am indeed blessed.  In 1 Chronicles 4:10, “Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, “Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.” And God granted his request.”  I am Jabez today, realizing the potential that God has to fulfill all that I need, my wishes, my desires…all that lines up with His plan for my life.  God has granted my request and I am indeed blessed.  I pray that you will tap into all God has for you.  Ask Him to keep His hand upon you, to protect you, to enlarge your life with His ministries, to bless you indeed.  See where it will take you and bask in the eternal glory that is only from God.  May you be at peace, may you find joy amidst life, may you be blessed indeed.  All my love.

Breathe In, Breathe Out

Come to me all you who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.
–Matthew 11:28

Breathe In, Breathe Out

Settling here in a world snowy white
Basking in the cool crisp air
A slight nip tickling my nose
The dazzling array of twinkling stars
Provides a blanket of entertainment
Admiring nature at its finest

Breathe in
Breathe out

Relaxing amidst the glorious peace
Water delicately ebbing to and fro
Calming the mind and soothing the soul
Trees gently whisper a comforting melody
A reminder of God’s very presence
Ah, to be in the midst of such splendor

Breathe in
Breathe out

Playfulness abounds with a sense of rest
Reveling as the children play
Laughter echoing from the snow covered hill
Sliding, gliding effortlessly atop the snow
Enjoying the wonder of youth
Their joy overtakes the heart within

Breathe in
Breathe out

I am typically a pretty healthy person, but lately, over the past month or so, I have been feeling unusual; not my typical self.  I have been getting tired easily, headaches have been coming frequently and I have just been feeling blah.  I know I am not sick with the flu or other cold bugs, just feeling weird, off kilter.  I talked with a few friends and they began to pray for me as the fatigue was getting to me the most.  It seemed that no matter how long I slept, it just wasn’t enough.  Weeks passed and no improvement, but I kept on trucking, getting things done as most single mom’s do.  I went to work, processed paperwork, worked with my students, came home, cooked, cleaned, enjoyed time with my son and attempted to read and spend time with God before collapsing into bed.

In mid February, I was invited to join a friend in Tahoe and decided it would be a beneficial time to get away, share my faith with some other friends that were going, and just escape from the hustle and bustle of the world.  Ah!!  Lake Tahoe, so beautiful, peaceful, and so close to God that His voice just resounds off the mountains, echoes over the water, and whispers in the wind.  It was fabulous.  I read, I wrote, I socialized, I shared, I slept!  Oh yes, I slept!  As I shuffled around the cabin we were staying in, my heart began to feel rejuvenated, renewed, and revived.  God was working on me that weekend.  He was healing me, giving me time to rest and allowing me time to be with Him and get filled!  I was truly blessed that weekend as I watched my son and the rest of the children playing in the snow.  I was able to write and read while listening to their laughter fill the air.

I am so very thankful for friends who invited me and for God who provided exactly what I needed to get my body back on track.  It is indeed the little things that make us whole, the details that keep us going.  May the Lord bless you with time to relax and rest so that you may be renewed and revived.  May He fill you with his energy and zest for life and may you heed his still, small voice in those quiet times.  Blessings and don’t forget to breath in and breath out.


Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. –Deuteronomy 31:6


Courage in the face of adversity
Standing strong in what you believe
Physical resistance against immorality
Despite the call for reprieve

Do not look at the world with fear
Rather face what God sends your way
Holding to God’s promises clear
He will give you no more than you can handle each day

Though you cannot see what lies around the corner
Go around them anyway
For in this world you are a foreigner
Possessing strength and wisdom when you pray

Seek Him first despite your fears
Boldly face the daggers and arrows of this life
Knowing to God and His might you must adhere
Standing courageous against malice and strife

Love with passion and warmth so dear
Even as the others loath and hate
Give to those who curse and sneer
Listen despite the fear of those who lie in wait

Be the image of Christ amidst a world lost and dying
With your own life be not so concerned
Let the courage of Christ keep you trying
Help those who are lost be returned

When we struggle to face the complications of this world, there are numerous reasons. Perhaps there is fear of confrontation, fear of being different from everyone else around us. Maybe you dread the outcome if you stand up and say something or someone is wrong. Or perhaps you fear the unknown and thus ride the wave of mainstream thought. Whatever your reason, whatever your fear that keeps you from standing for what you believe, you must surrender. You must understand that God is indeed bigger than all that you face, bigger than the opposition that rises against you when you speak out. He is bigger than a person who stands against you and bigger than any conflict that arises.
We are called to stand on the truth of God and that is not an easy task. Will we be ridiculed? Will we face opposition? Will we endure persecution for His name? Will we be struck and hit by words or fists of fury at what we say or do? The answer to all of those questions is absolutely! With no doubt, those who stand strong on the word of God and all that He stands for are indeed in for a rough time. But rest assured that God said He would always be with us and give us all that we need to face each day and to overcome the darkness that desires to pull us into the world’s web of beautiful lies and deceit. He promises to give us no more than we can handle. However, we cannot handle much in our own strength, so praise be to God that we can come boldly to the throne of grace and receive all the strength and courage we need to face any adversity that comes our way.
May the Lord fill you with courage to take a stand and wisdom to know when to battle and when to love. May He bless your heart with peace to face each day, no matter what comes and with grace to have compassion on those you call enemy. All my love and blessings that you will see you were chosen by the Lord above to bring light into this world of chaos and darkness.

Yet I Rise

Let us acknowledge the LORD; let us press on to acknowledge Him. As surely as the sun rises, He will appear; He will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth. –Hosea 6:3

Yet I Rise

Tired and drained
Unwillingly I fall
Tattered and torn
Yet I rise

Confused and uncertain
Hope diminished
Wandering and lost
Yet I rise

Hurting and broken
Words pierce my heart
Suffering and tender
Yet I rise

Angry and upset
Going it alone
Abandoned and resentful
Yet I rise

Distressed and troubled
Fearing the unknown
Perplexed and disappointed
Yet I rise

I rise to call Your name Oh Lord
I rise to seek Your face
I rise to do Your will
I rise above the challenge
For You are my God

Being a single mom, raising a preteen who thinks he is a teen…..need I say more!?!  Challenges abound, learning curves continuously leap from around the corner, and yet I rise.  I rise because God is bigger than all that I face.  I rise because I know He has awesome, wonderful plans for me and my son.  I rise because with the strength of God I can do all things.  Despite your own circumstances, I pray that you rise above and find the everlasting peace and strength of God to carry you through life’s journey!  Blessings and love.