Archive | January 2013

Demons of the Night

 Be self-controlled and alert.  Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.  1 Peter 5:8

Demons of the Night

January 5, 2013

Haunting thoughts

Eerily seeping into the forefront  of my mind

Disturbing my peace

Breaking the silent slumber

Seeking to devour

Demons of the night

Occupy the mind

Perhaps for a little while

Recurring at will

Invading the peaceful bliss

So tired of fighting

Demons of the night

Exhaustion persists

Conscious thoughts so cruel

I beg you go away

Haunt me no more

Sleep eludes

Demons of the night

Deceived

Life reflects a most spectacular journey, one that creates memories that linger in the files of our minds.  Like all file cabinets, my mind has files that are filled with memories I want to hold onto forever and relive over and over and then there are the files I wish I could delete with the press of a button…as if they never occurred or had time to sear their disturbing images into my mind.   Ah, but that is life.   A journey in which we fill our hearts and mind with the good, the bad, the beautiful, and the ugly.  Each experience is allowed into our lives by God Himself to enable us to grow, to become strong, and to be molded into His image.  It is our memories that make us who we are, build our character, and increase our ability to endure and adapt to future events that befall us.  Though God desires that no harm come to His children, sin serves us otherwise.

I struggle to find a balance sometimes between the good and the bad, knowing satan has a hand on always making sure the bad memories, the disturbing patterns, the desperate coping mechanisms, and the frighteningly evil images surface once in a while.   A test to build endurance and perseverance?  A trial to bring strength and wisdom?  An opportunity to draw closer to God and refocus, or renew and transform, my mind yet again from the wicked and twisted ways of the world to conform more to God’s ways?  Whatever reason God allows satan to bring these destructive memories to mind is unbeknownst to me, and though I trust my Lord and Savior with all that I am, with every fiber of my being….the struggle is real.  The struggle is draining.  The struggle is indeed a battle for my heart and soul and this is one which I cannot fight alone!

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God,

and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 11:3

Deceived

January 5, 2013

Oh God you love me so

You build me up

You never let me go

You want only good in my life

Seeking to bring no harm

You help me through the strife

My mind it deceives

Plays tricks on my heart

Spirit and flesh at war

Paying the price from the start

Satan tugs and nudges

Ever so slyly he worms in

Seeking to devour the good

Bringing pain amidst the sin

Pray though I might

Worship and praise as I may

The thoughts still echo

Attempting to keep You at bay

I will hold tight to Your hand

Doing my best in this weak flesh

To fight, to take a stand

Search me Lord, seek and find

Take captive these wicked thoughts

Cleanse my heart and mind

Shine

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition,

with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:6

shine

Shine

December 12, 2012

Rays of sunshine searching for a place to shine
Covered by clouds of doubt
Winds of time churning on
Waiting for no one
Like waves tossed to and fro
Seeking to know the way
Wanting so much
Unsure of what the future holds
Excitement and anticipation
Conjoined with uncertainty and trepidation
Waiting for the clouds to pass
Praying to find the way
Trusting God to lead
Following in confidence
The Son will surely shine