Archive | March 16, 2013

Tears May Fall

It is funny how God works! He takes something, be it a scripture address, a word, a moment, a vision, a dream—whatever he desires to use—and leads me down a path that enlightens and strengthens. As I was showering this morning, Job 2:10 kept echoing in my mind, so I figured that when I met with God today I would indeed look that up, and thus I did.

Job 2:10 He replied, “You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?”

This was Job’s response to his wife’s encouragement to “curse God and die” when he became afflicted with painful sores from the soles of his feet to the top of his head. He had already lost his family, his servants, his livestock, his home, though in all the pain and the suffering, he did not sin. Wow, talk about a man after God’s own heart! Oh to be that strong and face adversity or difficult decisions head on with complete trust and faith in God.

As I sat pondering what the Lord was leading me to take from this passage, I prayed. I was inspired by worship music that faded into the background as my focus shifted solely to my God. I cried out, seeking His will, His message for my heart, His desire for my life. The more I cried, the more I humbled myself and sought forgiveness and a pure heart from this almighty, all-consuming God I so delightfully call Father! I wanted so desperately in that moment to bury myself at the Cross, to lie at Christ’s feet and let the world pass away. The more I lay there, pouring out my heart and soul, the more my sinfulness was revealed, my weaknesses unveiled, my heart torn. In that moment, I felt the power of God surge, the beauty of Christ’s sacrifice cover me, the strongholds of my heart gone, faded in an intense meeting with the Creator of the Universe, The One True God who is the only one who knows me—even more than I know myself.

I arose and examined Job 2:10 harder, with clearer eyes and a cleaner heart—the words grew and echoed in my thoughts and then I began to search deeper, seeking more! God led me to realize that life is not easy, that I live in fear because I don’t want to hurt others, I don’t want to inflict pain, or bring suffering in any way. I wept, my heart and deepest fears exposed. Laying prone on the floor, Romans 8:26-27, 2 Timothy 1:7, and Philippians 4:13 came to my heart.

Romans 8:26-27 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will. And we know that in all things God works the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Job was in immense pain, he had lost everything—his sons and daughters were killed, his livestock was destroyed, his servants were killed, his home destroyed. Now his health was gone and his wife was leaving. He had nothing, yet he mustered the strength to accept this all from God; that it was His will, His plan for his life. He didn’t blame God or turn His back on God. No, he stood up for His God, having faith that God was indeed in control, despite how he felt.

Job had to confront his wife and then he had to confront his friends who had blamed Job’s sin for his destruction. Job cried out. He prayed from the heart. He laid his emotions, his feelings—anger, pain, misery, confusion—all of it was cast upon the Lord. But still, amidst the encouragement to curse God from his friends and his wife, he stood his ground. He would rather have not been born than to curse God. He was devoted to God and trusted God’s plan for life, even if it meant death.

Trusting is often hard to do, especially in face of adversity or difficulties. It is when the rubber meets the road that fear or worry can set in. It is when we face the toughest of challenges that Satan worms his way in trying to deter and confuse. It is in the darkest tests of life that we have to rise above, cast Satan back in the name of Jesus, and seek even harder God’s plan for our lives.

2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us the spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, and love and of self-discipline.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Standing for what God is and what His plans are for our lives, even though we may not know the direction or the reason why, takes great courage. Job stepped out on faith, had courage that God would do what he had to do and that there was meaning and purpose behind it. Do we have that courage? Are we strong enough to face adversity head on and work through the pain and suffering to meet God in a better place? Do we have the self-discipline and love to speak the truth, even when it is hard? Do we have the strength to do what God calls us to do?

In our weakness, he is strong!

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Job was weak indeed. He was broken, torn, battered, beat down. His heart was downcast. His body was destroyed. His emotions were devastated. His life was in ruins, yet he stood in the shadow of God and realized that through it all, he was still God’s child. He was faithful and trusted that God was still with him through all the pain, all the suffering, all the torment. He didn’t know why God was doing, or allowing, these life-shattering things into his life, but he knew his God! He knew his God had plans. He humbled himself before the Lord! He persevered! He stood on the promises of God! He was made stronger and more perfect through his weaknesses!

Job did not let fear keep him from confronting his wife. He did not let worry keep him from stating the truth to his friends. He did not let his own flesh get in the way of God’s design for his life. He was willing to die, trusting that God had him! That is not to say that he did not experience a plethora of emotions or struggle with his faith. It simply means that he knew God. He knew that his faith in God–even in miniscule amounts–did not guarantee he would not have troubles in this life. He knew that God allowed suffering for reasons beyond understanding. He knew that God was always there, even amidst the darkest times, the toughest trials, and the hardest decisions.  Job stood his ground, held tight to God amidst the storm that was sinking his ship, and he prospered because of it.  He was blessed more than he could have imagined!

1 John 5:14-15 This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.

1 John 3:21 Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him.

I want to stand strong in the Lord. I want to do his will and not my own. I may not understand, nor may I ever understand, His ways, but much like Job, I know that he has designed for me every day of my life, from the day I was born to the day I die. He knows my heart and my desires even better than I. He knows that I will fall, I will sin, I will make poor choices. He knows that I will take alternate paths, deter from his plan for me, and run defiantly the other direction at times. But through it all, I know He will hold me, He will guide me, He will give me strength and courage to be bold in my love. He will give me direction—if I listen—that will lead me to eternal glory. Just as He gave His Son so that I can live, I give my life so He can live! I die to my desires, to my wants, to my flesh. I die so that He may live! Your will God, not my own!

I pray for your strength and wisdom to speak Your words. I know that you are in control and that you have plans for my life that I do not know. You are in control of my future and the futures of those lives I touch every day.  You have nothing but plans to prosper your children and bring them hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).  When we ask Lord God, You give!  I ask that you give me clarity and discernment; that You give me bold love and words to speak; that You give me a Spirit of power, love and self-control.  Let my words be Yours, let my actions be Yours, let my heart be Yours, and my life Father God, let it be Yours.


But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. –2 Corinthians 12:9

Tears May Fall

In weakness God is strong
Constantly leading the way
Seek, ask, knock
Know that He is there
He is holding you right now
Life is life
Nothing easy
Everything filled with battles
Flesh and soul
Eternal and earthly
Wars rage on
Sometimes to be free
We have to let go
Surrender to God
Give it all
Our wants, our desires
Our fears, our pain
We must die
So that we may live
Tears will fall
Hearts will be torn
God will mend
His love will fill the void
Building, strengthening
Making us better than before
Guide us
Search us
Confront our selfish ways
Lead us in Your way everlasting
Bring us to where You are