Archive | June 2013

Old Meets New 7 ~ Once Lost

But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit Titus 3:4-5


Once Lost

I’ve embarked on a journey to discover myself
The person once lost, the one I put on the shelf
The sweet little girl so innocent and true
Trusting those that I loved like all good girls do
The blossoming teenager who sought to fit in
Instead finding only hurt in a world filled with sin
The dedicated wife who gave him my all
Yet with no real reason, helplessly I watched it fall
My past, how it teases, it glares and mocks me so
Waiting for me to crumble from the pressures once known
But I have found God and my past will not win
It is my future God views, not where I have been

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Slowly, but surely my life is taking on meaning
God is healing and changing me, giving hope and rebuilding
No matter my past, I know I will rise above
But I can’t do it alone; I need God’s heavenly love
His promise of freedom, contentment and peace
By focusing on Him, my soul finds release
With God leading me, my pain and distrust shall pass
Building hope for a future that will definitely last
Though struggles still come and I feel I’ve lost my way
I trust in God for guidance, it’s getting easier each day


Thank you God for this journey, the path to explore
You have opened my heart, walking me through each door
The hurting does lessen with You at my side
So, I give it to you, no longer will I hide
Thank you for peace, for justifying how I feel
Please, continue to mold me into someone more real
The person who is trusting, full of love that is true
The person I once lost, but have now found in You

Old Meets New 6 – Valley of Life

In this life you will often face road blocks or brick walls that keep you from achieving your own personal goals, and hinder you from moving forward in God’s glory. There comes a point in your life when you know what your gifts and talents are, when you know the direction you want to go, and when you feel God pulling at your heart-strings, bringing His desires into fruition. However, God never promised the Journey to carry out His will and plan for your life would be easy. In fact He reminds you that the road will be difficult, and that there will be pressure, persecution, and enemies will strike you, seeking to keep you from achieving all God has planned for you (2 Corinthians 4:8-9). The wonderful thing is that God also promises that He will be with you, that He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:8 ). He assures you that you will not be crushed, nor destroyed, but that you will triumph and find victory when you trust in Him and let Him lead you (2 Corinthians 4:8-9, Isaiah 43:2, Isaiah 40:31, Micah 7:8).

Remember the next time you face an obstacle that is deterring you from the will of God, all you need do is reach up and pray that God will give you the strength to endure the trial, power to overcome it, and wisdom to know the direction to go. Stay connected and don’t lose hope, for with God you will overcome!! Blessings.

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed, perplexed, but not in despair, persecuted, but not abandoned, struck down, but not destroyed. –2 Corinthians 4:8-9

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Valley of Life

Trying hard to do what’s right
Struggling to get out of the valley
Praying for the end to be in sight
Wishing for an alternate reality

Wanting to rise above the trials
Getting hit from every side
Tribulations dragging on for miles
Crying out, wishing I could hide

I want to hide away from the world
Its arrows and slings slicing heart and mind
Watching the future aimlessly unfold
Winds blowing leaving chaos behind

Reaching up instead of out
Seeking strength only God can provide
Trusting He will carry me through this drought
Desiring Him to be my ultimate guide

Lead me O Lord through this life
I fall to my knees in full humility
I trust that you will end this strife
Knowing you my God will forever keep me

Old Meets New 5 – Desires of the Heart

There are simply times in my life when what I desire and pray for  seem to be left empty.  I have all I need, but for some reason I am sometimes wanting more.  Perhaps it is the echo of the world in my ear, or maybe the ticking of  my internal clock.  Could they be true desires of my heart, or  are they longings that will fill voids of loneliness, heartbreak, or fear?  Whatever the drive, desires are strong, deep, and emotional fixtures of this life.  I may desire more, and my desires may be Godly, but the timing is never my own.  God is the only who knows me inside and out, from birth to death.  He knows when I need to move, and what is the best time for my God-given desires to be filled.

The only issue now…..patience!  Often God does not meet the desires of your heart for he knows you are not ready for what they will bring into your life.  Wait on his timing so that your heart and our mind can be renewed, transformed, strengthened, and prepared for the wonderful blessings he has in store for you!

Psalm 130:5 I wait on The LORD, my soul does wait, and in his word I hope.

While one door may be closed, God will open another one….in his timing.  Until then, wait on the LORD, and know that the desires of your heart that align with his good and perfect will, will be met when you are truly, deeply ready!

Until then, God bless and may patience and perseverance be with you!  All my love ❤

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

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Desires of My Heart

Waiting for the desires of my heart
Anxious to move on
Hoping I will see the signs

Desiring for so much more
Longing to start again
Earnestly my heart pines

Somewhere inside doubt exists
Feeling I am not good enough
Thinking it will never last

Wanting to press on
Fearing the unknown
Stuck in a relational impasse

Praying for guidance
Seeking God in all I do
Patiently surrendering my will

Asking Him to be my all
Letting Him be the one in charge
Trusting the desires of my heart will be revealed

Old Meets New 4 – Revive Me Again

Always my prayer is that God will lead me away from the things of this world, and draw me closer to the beauty of His Word and His Ways.  When I am broken, filled with sorrow, and in the pit of despair, it is then that God revives me, filling me with His presence and becoming my Light and my  beacon.

May you also turn to God when you feel there is no other way, when you feel that the world has won, when you are stuck in the darkness of despair, and struggling to find your way.

God bless and keep you, and may you taste the beauty of the Lord ❤

butterfly 6Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to Your word. –Psalm 119:37

Revive Me Again

I am laid low in the dust
My soul is weary with sorrow
Strengthen me according to Your word
Direct me in the path of Your commands
Turn my heart toward Your statutes
Not toward my selfish gain
May Your unfailing love be my comfort
Let Your hand become my help

My eyes fail, looking for Your promise
I have suffered much
Do not let my hopes be dashed
Uphold me and I will be delivered
Plead my cause and redeem me

My flesh trembles in fear of You
Rivers of water run down from my eyes
Trouble and distress have overtaken me
I cry out with my whole heart
Hear my voice according to Your loving-kindness
Consider my affliction and deliver me
Renew me according to Your word
Revive me according to Your generosity

Let my cry come before You, O LORD
Give me understanding according to Your word
Let my supplication come before You
Direct my steps by Your word
And let no iniquity have dominion over me

Old Meets New 3 – Fight for Me

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For those times when you just can’t stand any longer.  The times when life has broken you down, and the flesh seeks to overpower.  For the moments we fail, struggle to do what is right, and are unable to fight the good fight.  Know that the Lord will fight for you.  He will stand before you, guarding you, holding you, protecting you, giving you his strength, carrying you through your weakness, making you stronger than you ever were before.

Do not give up….but hold on!

God bless and keep you always!

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. –Exodus 14:14


Fight for Me

Lord, I need you
Desires run strong
Sin consumes the thoughts
A battle yet to be won
War torn
Heart against mind
Spirit against flesh
Will against desire
I cannot stand alone
Surely I will fall
Succumb to the wickedness inside
Internal evil fights for control
I am not my own
Nor do I belong to the darkness
I am yours
Victorious through Your Son’s death
Pure in spite of myself
I am weak
I am torn Lord
Fight for me, please

Old Meets New 2 – The Tears God Cried

In this life we have all had times of sorrow.  Not just a sadness that brings a night of tears and then joy in the morning, but rather a deep, soul-felt sorrow, that ensnare our hearts and brings emotional, gut wrenching pain. I have walked that line in my life, been in the alley of darkness, and down the streets of confusion, but God has brought me great peace through His love and His hand in my life.  He has unveiled my clouded eyes so that I can see the goodness of life.  He has surrounded me by Godly, loving women and men that have encouraged me, and shown me what love looks like.  He has blessed me with a wonderful son who shows me everyday that life is a blessing indeed.  Even if you hover in the shadows of fear, pain, trauma, abuse, depression, or despair, know that there is a light-a wonderful light beyond you that can fill all the voids and bring healing to the broken.   Reach out to those who love you, go to your local church and seek counsel, fellowship with people you trust…and let the power of God touch you as never before!

The Spirit of the Sovereign is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor.  He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.  They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.  ~ Isaiah 61:1-3

God will bring you joy, cover you with his light, heal your broken heart, and bring freedom for your wounded soul.  TRUST in Him….and you will be renewed.  In His love!

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus…I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.  ~ Philippians 4:7, 13

The Tears God Cried

Who are you?
Scared little girl
Hiding behind the fake laugh
Dreadfully fearing the dark secrets
Horrified someone will find out

Who can you turn to?
Those who should be trustworthy
Were your very betrayers
Those you trusted
You feared would reject you

You were a child
An innocent blessing given from God
Placed in the arms of adults
Adults who were supposed to protect you
Instead they stole your innocence

God cried for you
He was angry for your very pain
Saw the hurts that no one else saw
Peering into your heart and soul
He wept for the darkness residing there

Were you guilty?
Never for a moment
The guilt and shame you carried
It was meant for your aggressors
Those who belittled and mistreated you

Gods plan for you continued
When evil reigned so harshly in your young life
And torment altered your path
He stayed with you
Blessing you with strength

The strength was not physical
Nor was it even mental
Instead God blessed your soul
Deep within He gave you strength
Strength of spirit to grow and love

Can you love?
You can love where you are
How far you have come
You can love because God loved you
Even when you did not

Old Meets New 1 – Amidst the Storms of Life

I have decided to condense my blogs into this one blog, therefore, I will be transferring past posts to this site. The other site was titled Struggles Against Principalities, and was a place for me to examine the trials and tribulations I was facing in my life, and allow me a chance to help others see that they are not alone in this world of struggles…God is always there, orchestrating all things to bring us all to a place of blessing filled with peace, joy, and contentment. Just as on the other blog, I pray these will touch your life and bring you a sense of how much you are loved by your Creator.

God bless!



Have you ever felt like the storms in your life will never end? Wondered why life is so difficult and when the instability will cease? Life here on earth is not meant to be perfect as that was destroyed with the fall of man–thank you very much Adam and Eve. However, we have hope. We have the chance to believe that things can get better; that the storms will calm and life will cease to unravel. Yes, there is hope and we can overcome the storms. How? Through earnestly seeking God and His plan for you life.

I too have been traveling the weary journey of problems and circumstances that have caused me to fear and at times lose hope. Having been unemployed for almost 5 years this school year, the road of life has had it share of instability and uncertainty. But, with God at my side (even when I couldn’t feel Him) I was able to cling to an inner peace. The Lord God Almighty was my shelter during this time of trouble. He was my strong tower when I couldn’t travel the path any longer. Even when my flesh warred with God, ultimately my Spirit won out, and I ran to Him, to the shelter of his wings (Psalm 61:4). In the Lord’s hiding place, I found rest from life’s pressures, stability amidst the caverns of chaos, and refuge from the desert mountains of depression. Yes, God was my all in all during the storms.

He was El Shaddai, the All Sufficient One, the God who nourishes, supplies and satisfies. Through this long journey of unemployment God blessed me with friends who helped, a church that met my needs, and government help that kept food on the table. He supplied all I needed and satisfied my heart with His love and nourished me physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Does that mean I was always happy, always certain from one week to the next of what we would eat, what we would do financially? Of course not, but in my weakness, He was strong and He carried me. Praise God!

The Lord was El Roi, the God who sees and watches over me. Sometimes in our flesh we feel that God isn’t there; He doesn’t see what is going on in our life, otherwise He would change it or make it better. Well, that is a lie from Satan! God sees all that we go through and seeks to bring good, hope, and a future of peace to our lives (Jeremiah 29:11, Philippians 4:7). He doesn’t want us to worry or be anxious, as we are so important to Him and in His love, He will come to our aid (Philippians 4:6, Psalm 31:2). He sees all that happens in our life and will use it to bring good. Remember one thing, God does not bring hurt, chaos, or darkness into your life–Satan does! God is the one who uses Satan’s evil to bring about growth, strength, resolve, beauty, and hope to us! Embrace the journey and let the God, who sees it all, bless you because of it.

Through this entire journey of unemployment, God has most assuredly been Jehovah Jirah for me–the God who provides. He met every need in the most amazing ways! I received monetary gifts in the mail when I least expected them (thanks to those anonymous people who listened to the voice of God and came to my rescue!). There were times that bill companies graciously gave me extensions for payments and times when food was given to me out of the blue. God gave all that I needed and so much more. He allowed me to find true humility amidst the struggle and gave me the chance to learn and embrace grace and love in so many ways! It is His unlimited bounty that helped me face each day secure in His provision for me and my family. Again, I had my moments of anxiety, my nights of tears, and days of disappointment, but God used His spirit within to keep me grounded and bring me back to the shelter of His love for me.

Two major things I took away from this journey (though there are so many more) are that of trust and prayer. I learned that trust is not just a word or an agreement, but it is an ACTION. When we trust in the Lord we are to show that trust. How can you show trust? There are several ways: do not worry about what each day will bring (Matthew 6:26-27), seek God in prayer (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18), and believe that He has good plans for you (Jeremiah 29:11). Each of those requires action, either physical, mental, emotional, or a combination. Though it seems that your problems will never subside, believe that God is bigger than all the problems you could ever face and that He is your refuge amidst the storms.

With all my love and thanks to my friends and family for getting me through one of the most difficult journeys in my life. You are truly Angels of God’s Light!