Archive | October 5, 2013

Broken Girl

In this world pain and suffering are unavoidable, but there is hope amidst the chaos and torture we encounter both physically, emotionally, and spiritually. As women we are considered by some to be weak and here to serve men. However, the meaning of Biblical servitude did not include the abuse and degradation of our innocence, and the devastation of our soul. Sexual abuse is often considered taboo to discuss and is hidden under the carpet, both for those who partake of it and those who are its prey. No more!

Ladies, you have a God that is bigger than anyone who has ever hurt and abused you, a God who has wept at your stolen innocence, and has been angered by the abuses done to you. I praise God each day for the miracles He sets in my path, and one of those is Matthew West, an artist who has taken to heart the despair that faces women who have fallen victim to sexual abuse. His song, Broken Girl, has touched me to the core, and I want to share the lyrics with you. I hope that you can read the words, and be inspired to release the demons of abuse–guilt, shame, ambivalence, self contempt, depression, despair—and surrender them at the foot of the cross! God is big enough to carry them and has more than enough love to see you through the storm of recovery.

Deuteronomy 31:6 tells us to “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” What a wonderful promise. Do not be afraid to seek counsel, to get help, and tell your story. God will honor your pain and courage with love never-ending, and a new image of who you are in Him—-clean, holy, righteous, beautiful, and perfect! You are a daughter in the kingdom of heaven, and no one can take that from you, NO ONE!

May the Lord touch your heart, heal your mind, and shine light into the darkness of your soul. With all my love!

Broken Girl
written and sung by Matthew West
To hear the entire song, simply click here.

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Look what he’s done to you
It isn’t fair
Your light was bright and new
But he didn’t care
He took the heart of a little girl
And made it grow up too fast
Now words like innocence
Don’t mean a thing
You hear the music play
But you can’t sing
Those pictures in your mind
Keep you locked up inside of your past

This is the song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
You are, Hear me when I say
You’re not the worthless they made you feel
There is a love they can never steal away
Cause you don’t have to stay the broken girl

Those damaged goods you see
In your reflection
Love sees them differently
Love sees perfection
A beautiful display
Of healing all the way tonight

This is the song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
You are, Hear me when I say
You’re not the worthless they made you feel
There is a love they can never steal away
You don’t have to stay the broken girl

Let your tears touch the ground
Lay all your shattered pieces down
And be amazed by how grace can take a broken girl
And put her back together again

This is the song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
Hear me when I say
You’re not the worthless they made you feel
There is a love they can never steal away
You don’t have to stay the broken girl

Darkness to Light

Everyone has a past, times that haunt, memories that taunt and tear our hearts and minds apart. Sometimes they can be so overwhelming and you feel like you will break because the conflict is so strong. Believe the lies or seek the truth and let it fill your heart and mind?

I used to allow these wicked thoughts to take control, to lead me to places of danger and harm. But somehow, in some miraculous way, God came in. He reminded me of the truth…that I am HIS beautiful creation. I am pure and righteous through the atoning blood of His Son’s sacrifice. I am His daughter whom He loves with a love so divine and so grand that I am filled with a peace I simply don’t understand. With prayer and encouragement from trusted friends, He shines the light of His love whenever the lies of my past open the floodgates of darkness. He brings grace where shame once resided. God has given me the wonderful gift of His mercy, a compassion so rich it fills my soul and washes over the sinful guilt coursing through my heart and mind.

I honestly don’t know how my life would be without the pure love of God that came and rescued me! Would I be drowning in Satan’s sea of lies? Perhaps I would have turned to a life of alcohol or drugs to numb the pain? Maybe I would have resorted to cutting or a destructive lifestyle to bring relief from the past? I know not where I would be today without the grace of God living within me. He has reached into my state of brokenness and set me free from the shackles and bondage of abuse and for that I am eternally grateful. Yes, there are those moments where satan desires nothing more than to remind me of my past, to bring the abuse back to the forefront of my mind, to fill my heart with his elegant lies. But today it is different, for satan has been cast out…the lies replaced with the beauty and love of my wonderful, great, awesome, and powerful God!

I pray that you too can feel the loving hand of God upon you. May his truth come to light and wash over you so that no matter how hard satan tries, you will still return to the loving God who created you and calls you His own. Don’t lose hope by remaining in the pain of the past or the sin filled life of the present. Instead, run to the grace filled arms of Jesus Christ and find ultimate release from the sinful thoughts, the destructive plans, and the devastating patterns you have developed to help with the pain. Release them to the only One who can heal you deep within. May you find strength and peace amidst this journey of life! And even more importantly, may the glorious forgiveness of God encompass your very soul, reminding you how beautiful and how loved you truly are. All my love.

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them. –Isaiah 42:16

Darkness to Light

Darkness
Shame
Shifting sand

Spiraling
Plummeting
Nowhere to stand

Contempt
Anger
Rising again

Battling
Torment
Mind filled with sin

Searching
Seeking
Reaching for God’s hand

Praying
Yearning
Waiting to land

Forgiveness
Healing
God’s love so grand

Listening
Learning
Shackles of sin disband

Grace
Light
Flowing from God’s hand

Kiss ~ In loving memory of my Grandfather

And the fond memories continue to flow!  Praise God for a godly man in my life that reminded me everyday how a man should treat a woman.  Thank you Lord for giving me a wonderful example to look up to and to compare future men to.  He was a thoughtful husband, a true gentleman, a loving father, and an exceptional grandfather.  I was so very blessed to have considered him a father and a grandfather…so blessed indeed.

grandpa

Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.  In my Father’s house are many mansions, if it were not so, I would have told you.  I go to prepare a place for you.  ~ John 14:1-2

Kiss

A lifetime of experience
You have been through it all
Yet despite life’s harshness
You have stood strong and tall

You have indeed been blessed
By the Lord above
Given chances to shine
And many opportunities to love

You have been warm and tender
To those in your care
A pillar of strength
When others despaired

You firmly disciplined
Yet, in a loving, gentle way
Teaching right from wrong
“It builds character!” you would say

You have been a blessing
To so many, including me
You are dear to my heart
And always will be

God has decided it’s your time to leave
He has wonderful things in store
A release from this pain is His desire for you
To be with loved ones who have gone before

I cannot hide my sorrow
You will definitely be missed
But, I know you go to a better place
Where Grandma is waiting with a kiss

I love you Pa and will carry you forever in my heart! Until we meet again at the Heavenly gates!!

Kiss ~ In memory of my Grandmother

Today, I have been pondering the memories of the people in my past that have made me who I am, and provided me with direction and wisdom that continues to guide me today and will do so well into the future.  I recently started scrapbooking pictures of family and friends that date back as far as the 1800’s.  It has been fabulous and reminds me of the blessings we have, and the struggles others went through to get me where I am today.  Many are long gone, and many I have never met, but without them, I would not exist!

With that said, in loving memory of my exceptionally wonderful grandparents, I share poems in their memory. This one is dedicated to my grandmother who showed me what it meant to be a lady. I could never leave the house without a slip under my skirt or dress, I was called to respect and show kindness (as you did toward me), and it was expected that I would behave like a proper lady at all times.  She was not just my grandmother, but a mother to me as well, and I am so thankful for her influence in my life!

grandma

He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. In their hands they shall bear you up. Lest you dash your foot against a stone. ~ Psalm 91:11-12

Now I Know Why…

As I watch home videos
Tears fill my eyes
I miss you with all my heart
And wonder why it was your time to die

Whenever life gets complicated
Times when it seems so tough
My selfishness comes out
I want you here, all to myself

Why did God have to take you
He knows I need you so much
You are now out of my reach
Well beyond my touch

I look back at all you did for me
Instilling values and morals deep in my soul
Telling me of your life stories
Sharing my joys and sorrows

You are no longer here with me
Instead, you reside high above
An angle up in Heaven
Residing with lost ones you loved

I was blessed to be cared for by you
More fortunate than most
For this I am indeed very thankful
To the Lord, our Heavenly Host

I suppose I understand now
Why God called you home to Him
He needed someone wonderful
To help welcome the rest of us in

With all my love to you and may the glory of Heaven be all you ever imagined!  Until I see you again, your loving granddaughter.