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New Year Equals New Opportunities (Beckah Shae~Life)

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New Year equals new opportunities, new outlook, and new chances! I love the beginning of a new year as it provides a chance to start over with a clean slate and positive outlook!! Just as each day provides a clean slate, so too does each new year. This year…expect the best, prepare for the worst, love boldly, laugh out loud, cry deeply, hope eternally, and live fully!! You never know when your life or the life of a loved one will be taken for none of us are ever promised tomorrow! Each breath is a gift! Don’t waste this year spending your life in anger, envy, strife, conflict, blame, guilt, shame, anxiety, or bitterness for they take away the joy and beauty of each day and take a physical, spiritual, mental, and emotional toll on the quality of your life.

1. If you are angry, pray for peace and surrender to the Lord your anger.
2. If you are envious, try being thankful for what you DO have, for many others have much less than you.
3. If you are in strife or conflict with someone, apologize and make things right….even if you aren’t the one
who made things wrong (after all God forgives and makes things right with you everyday, even when
He was not the one who sinned or made things wrong!–just saying’).
4. If you are spending time blaming others for where you are and who you have become, decide to take responsibility for yourself and the direction of your life for only you have the power to change it!!
5. If you are stuck in a life filled with guilt and shame, pray, seek counsel, change your ways, and surrender it to God– it was Christ’s sacrifice that has covered ALL your guilt and shame with love, mercy, and grace at the cross!
6. If you are filled with anxiety about whatever you are facing, be it finances, family struggles,
employment, death, health, or anything else out of your control….rest in the arms of God.
Cast all your cares on Him for He cares for you (more than you may ever know!!).
7. If you hold bitterness towards someone who has wronged you…let it go!!
It doesn’t hurt the other person, but it destroys you from the inside out!
Forgive and find strength in God to show mercy and grace, just as he has so freely given it to you.

Strive to make this year a GOD centered year, instead of a ME centered year and look forward to all that you will be blessed with! When your focus is love and peace, the world is so much better off….and so are YOU!

All my love ❤

Come as You Are! ~ Crowder

Come to me all you who labor and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me,
for I am gentle and humble in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy
And my burden is light.
~ Matthew 11:28-30

Come as You Are!

Broken
Hurting
Ashamed
Come as you are

Confused
Angry
Lost
Come as you are

Bitter
Wandering
Sorrowful
Come as you are

Healing found
Hope renewed
Joy restored
Come as you are

Freedom from bonds
Light to lead the way
Mercy free flowing
Come as you are

Sit in the arms of the Lord
Find rest under the shadow of His wings
Be filled to overflowing
Just come as you are

Wandering

Wow! How life can sometimes chew you up and spit you out! When we wander the field of our minds, we can often get stuck there, feeling as if hope is a fairytale spun by those with the “perfect” life. But in reality, there is no perfect life. Life is filled with ups and downs, chaos and peace, beauty and ugliness, joy and sorrow. Life has unexpected storms that can knock us down and keep us down for the count. But we are so richly blessed that we have a God who, despite the feelings and emotions, reminds us He is with us!! We have a God that holds us tight in our wanderings and for that I am ever so thankful….for even when I don’t feel it, I know He is there, somewhere!

“I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away,
bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick;
but I will destroy the fat and the strong,
and feed them in judgment.”
~ Ezekiel 34:16

Wandering

Anger erodes my thoughts
Directed aimlessly in the dark
There’s nowhere to turn
I am lost in uncertainty
Deception is everywhere
Victim to my emotions
My heart is broken
My soul lays shattered and torn
A vault sealed against further hurt
Yet it surrounds me
Making me face its fury
I am weak
I am tired
Faith and hope are fading
Peace is nonexistent
Lord bless me amidst the wandering

Restless

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Those who trust in the Lord
Are like Mount Zion,
Which cannot be moved, but abides forever.
~ Psalm 125:1 ~

 

Restless

Sleepless nights
Restless heart
Cluttered mind
Wandering thought

Alone in this moment
Standing on faith
Side by side with the darkness
In His word I wait

Broken innocence
Haunting past
Painful memories
Ambivalent feelings

Satan’s voice ringing in my ear
Taunting with his wicked ways
Holding tight to my Lord
I will trust in Him always

Anger rages
Sadness looms
Exhaustion befalls
Chaos reigns

Still I will hold tight
Letting God lead
Knowing He is my rock
And in Him I will be set free

Merely Existent

Have you ever encountered a time in your life, be it a day, a week, a month, or years, where it just seemed that there was no hope? Ever feel like the emotions of your circumstances would swallow you whole, leaving only an empty carcass of pain and defeat? I have been there with you my friend! I have encountered the gates of hell first hand, and am here to say that the darkness will not destroy you, nor will it consume you! I am living proof that there is hope! There is light amidst even the darkest times of your life. There is love even when you don’t love yourself and you feel as though love is nonexistent. I am here to tell you that there is release from the darkness and pain, and it is found in The Lord!

God will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6-8)! He is your light in a world of darkness (John 8:12, 12:46). He is your hope in those desperate times where everything seems to confuse and overwhelm (Romans 15:13, psalm 42:8). He is your strength when you just can’t go any more; when you just feel like you would be better off dead. God is there to lift you from the mire of your own sin (Psalm 40:2). He is there to pull you out of the pit of shame, guilt, and ambivalence.

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All you need do is cry out (Psalm 34:17, Isaiah 19:20)! Release your tears, your heartache, your pain. Surrender them to God and know that he collects them all, seeks revenge for wrongs done to you, forgives you for your own sins, and brings the hope and promise of a future filled with peace, comfort, hope, and salvation!

May you know you are not alone in your journey! All my love ❤

“Why are you like a man dismayed,
like a mighty man who cannot save?
Yet you are in our midst, O LORD,
and we are called by your name; do not forsake us!”
~ Jeremiah 14:9

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Merely Existent

Moving in slow motion
Life is taking its grueling toll
Leaving me feeling empty
Devoid of true happiness and peace

What do I face each day for
Only to be struck down
Beyond the anger, past the hurt
The emotions continually stupefy me

Why am I so lost
Confused as to who I am
What I want in life
What I expect from God

Each day seems so different
The expectations so unique
My existence like vapor
The hunger for something more haunts me

Longing to live passionately
Fearing to face reality
The thoughts anger me
Cause conflict deep in my soul

Resentment pulsing through my veins
Shattering the life I clung to
Sadness fills my heart
Casting its shadow on my joy

Self condemnation destroys my hope
Beckoning me towards the pit of hell
The emotional lion devours my very breath
Leaving only tortured remains

The Battle

Throughout life, you sin and you are sinned against! It is a part of being human. But what do you do when you are hurt, when innocence is torn from your young life bringing turmoil and confusion into your adulthood? How do you let go of what has been harboring in the heart, mind, and soul for so long? The Bible says that vengeance belongs to the Lord (Hebrews 10;30-31, Romans 12:19, Deuteronomy 32:35-36), but it also reminds us that it is okay to be angry (Ephesians 4:26, James 1:19-20). Righteous anger is when you are angry at a wrong done to you, against your heart, against your soul. But righteous anger does not lead to bitterness, resentment, and hatred. Righteous anger leads one to a place of forgiveness, healing, and restoration, allowing God to do His work in your heart and the heart of the person who hurt you!

So ask yourself today what you’re doing with your anger. Are you holding onto it, unable to hold the hand of God? Or, are you letting go of it, reaching for the healing power of God? Release it to God, and don’t provide Satan the opportunity to control your mind, your words, or your actions. Give the pain, bitterness, hatred, resentment, sorrow, devastation, and any other angry thoughts and emotions to God. Let Him bring healing, shining His light of love and grace into your broken heart, making room for the beauty in life!

May God be with you through the anger and the trials, bringing peace, comfort, and joy to your wounded soul!

“Be angry, and do not sin.”
Do not let the sun go down on your wrath or give place to the devil.
~ Ephesians 4:26-27

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The Battle
Anger and wrath work their way to the surface
Screaming to get out
All consuming
Deadening
Past events heinously take their place in the present
Intruding on my peace
Humiliating me
Devastating
Helplessly the demons of contempt move in
Condemning myself
Abhorring others
Those who caused me humiliation anger me
Tainted my innocence
Ravaged my soul
Exposing my pain with ferocious intensity
With a cruel vengeance the emotions attack
I am angry, alive, vulnerable
They are insatiable
Always intensifying
Circling endlessly about me
With great trepidation I face them
Waiting for the next battle

Proverbs for the Wicked

We all have a past, a story to tell, a moment we wish we would never remember again.  Some of those are moments where we have done wrong, either to ourselves or to someone else.  Other times those moments are when someone hurt. betrayed, belittled, abused, took advantage of, or lied to us.  It is in those time that our true walk with God, or lack there of, becomes apparent.  It is in the toughest, most angering moments that the rubber meets the road for our obedience to God.

No matter what has been done to you, the harboring of anger and bitterness, resentment and frustration must be released. You could be rude, be spiteful, or even seek revenge, but in the end….you become no better than those who have done or acted wrongly toward you. You become like them.

However, if you release that to God, turn the other proverbial cheek, and allow God to work His judgment and vengeance, then you are free from the bonds that separate you from God. If you hold tight to anger, bitterness, unforgiveness, ugliness, or vengeful thoughts, you are allowing sin to hold onto you, keeping you from growing with God, keeping you stagnant in your walk, causing you to fall further away from your faith.

In Ephesians 4:26, it states: “Be angry and do not sin”, Do not let the sun go down on your wrath or give place to the devil. If you hold onto anger, bitterness, resentment, unforgiveness…you allow Satan a path to your thoughts, your actions, and your words.

So choose today to let God redeem any wrongs done to you. Allow Him to provide the right and proper judgment to those who have sinned against you, and discover that you will have true peace and contentment! When you have moments where you just don’t want to let go, think on the scriptures below and release your heart and emotions to God.

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Hebrews 10:30 For we know him who said, “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” and again, “The Lord will judge his people.”

Romans 12:19 Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written, “It is mine to avenge, I will repay,” says the Lord.

Proverbs 25:21-22 If your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink. In doing this, you will reap burning coals on his head, and the Lord will reward you.

Romans 12:17-21 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord. On the contrary: “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Let God judge. Let God seek vengeance. Let God deliver your heart and mind from anger, bitterness, resentment, hatred, and vengeance. Seek Him in all things and enjoy peace beyond understanding (Philippians 4:6-7).

God bless and keep you always! ❤

The eyes of the Lord are in every place keeping watch on the evil and the good. ~ Proverbs 15:3

Proverbs for the Wicked

The wicked lurk secretly for the innocent without cause
They lie in wait for their own blood
They do not sleep unless they have done evil
Their sleep is taken away unless they make someone fall
They eat the bread of wickedness
And drink the wine of violence
The way of the wicked is like darkness
They do not know what makes them stumble
His own iniquities entrap the wicked man
He is caught in the cords of sin
A worthless person, a wicked man walks with a perverse mouth
Perversity is in his heart
He devises evil continually
He shall be broken without remedy
To do evil is like sport
The wicked man does deceptive work
He pursues evil to his own death
Those who are of a perverse heart are an abomination to the Lord
Deceit is in the heart of those who devise evil
The way of the wicked leads them astray
Evil pursues sinners
The mouth of the wicked pours forth evil
Getting treasures by a lying tongue is the fleeting fantasy of those who seek death
The soul of the wicked desires evil
When he speaks kindly do not believe him for there are abominations in his heart
Hell and destruction are never full so the eyes of man are never satisfied
The perverse person is an abomination to the Lord
The curse of the Lord is on the house of the wicked
Whoever causes the upright to go astray in an evil way
He himself will fall into his own pit, but the blameless will inherit good
The wicked will fall by his own wickedness
The unfaithful will be caught by their lust
The righteous will see their fall
Do not fret because of evildoers for there will be no prospect for the evil man
The lamp of the wicked will be put out
The evil will bow before the good and the wicked at the gates of the righteous
The wicked is banished in his wickedness
The righteous God wisely considers the house of the wicked
Overthrowing the wicked for their wickedness

Broken Girl

In this world pain and suffering are unavoidable, but there is hope amidst the chaos and torture we encounter both physically, emotionally, and spiritually. As women we are considered by some to be weak and here to serve men. However, the meaning of Biblical servitude did not include the abuse and degradation of our innocence, and the devastation of our soul. Sexual abuse is often considered taboo to discuss and is hidden under the carpet, both for those who partake of it and those who are its prey. No more!

Ladies, you have a God that is bigger than anyone who has ever hurt and abused you, a God who has wept at your stolen innocence, and has been angered by the abuses done to you. I praise God each day for the miracles He sets in my path, and one of those is Matthew West, an artist who has taken to heart the despair that faces women who have fallen victim to sexual abuse. His song, Broken Girl, has touched me to the core, and I want to share the lyrics with you. I hope that you can read the words, and be inspired to release the demons of abuse–guilt, shame, ambivalence, self contempt, depression, despair—and surrender them at the foot of the cross! God is big enough to carry them and has more than enough love to see you through the storm of recovery.

Deuteronomy 31:6 tells us to “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” What a wonderful promise. Do not be afraid to seek counsel, to get help, and tell your story. God will honor your pain and courage with love never-ending, and a new image of who you are in Him—-clean, holy, righteous, beautiful, and perfect! You are a daughter in the kingdom of heaven, and no one can take that from you, NO ONE!

May the Lord touch your heart, heal your mind, and shine light into the darkness of your soul. With all my love!

Broken Girl
written and sung by Matthew West
To hear the entire song, simply click here.

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Look what he’s done to you
It isn’t fair
Your light was bright and new
But he didn’t care
He took the heart of a little girl
And made it grow up too fast
Now words like innocence
Don’t mean a thing
You hear the music play
But you can’t sing
Those pictures in your mind
Keep you locked up inside of your past

This is the song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
You are, Hear me when I say
You’re not the worthless they made you feel
There is a love they can never steal away
Cause you don’t have to stay the broken girl

Those damaged goods you see
In your reflection
Love sees them differently
Love sees perfection
A beautiful display
Of healing all the way tonight

This is the song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
You are, Hear me when I say
You’re not the worthless they made you feel
There is a love they can never steal away
You don’t have to stay the broken girl

Let your tears touch the ground
Lay all your shattered pieces down
And be amazed by how grace can take a broken girl
And put her back together again

This is the song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
Hear me when I say
You’re not the worthless they made you feel
There is a love they can never steal away
You don’t have to stay the broken girl

Darkness to Light

Everyone has a past, times that haunt, memories that taunt and tear our hearts and minds apart. Sometimes they can be so overwhelming and you feel like you will break because the conflict is so strong. Believe the lies or seek the truth and let it fill your heart and mind?

I used to allow these wicked thoughts to take control, to lead me to places of danger and harm. But somehow, in some miraculous way, God came in. He reminded me of the truth…that I am HIS beautiful creation. I am pure and righteous through the atoning blood of His Son’s sacrifice. I am His daughter whom He loves with a love so divine and so grand that I am filled with a peace I simply don’t understand. With prayer and encouragement from trusted friends, He shines the light of His love whenever the lies of my past open the floodgates of darkness. He brings grace where shame once resided. God has given me the wonderful gift of His mercy, a compassion so rich it fills my soul and washes over the sinful guilt coursing through my heart and mind.

I honestly don’t know how my life would be without the pure love of God that came and rescued me! Would I be drowning in Satan’s sea of lies? Perhaps I would have turned to a life of alcohol or drugs to numb the pain? Maybe I would have resorted to cutting or a destructive lifestyle to bring relief from the past? I know not where I would be today without the grace of God living within me. He has reached into my state of brokenness and set me free from the shackles and bondage of abuse and for that I am eternally grateful. Yes, there are those moments where satan desires nothing more than to remind me of my past, to bring the abuse back to the forefront of my mind, to fill my heart with his elegant lies. But today it is different, for satan has been cast out…the lies replaced with the beauty and love of my wonderful, great, awesome, and powerful God!

I pray that you too can feel the loving hand of God upon you. May his truth come to light and wash over you so that no matter how hard satan tries, you will still return to the loving God who created you and calls you His own. Don’t lose hope by remaining in the pain of the past or the sin filled life of the present. Instead, run to the grace filled arms of Jesus Christ and find ultimate release from the sinful thoughts, the destructive plans, and the devastating patterns you have developed to help with the pain. Release them to the only One who can heal you deep within. May you find strength and peace amidst this journey of life! And even more importantly, may the glorious forgiveness of God encompass your very soul, reminding you how beautiful and how loved you truly are. All my love.

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them. –Isaiah 42:16

Darkness to Light

Darkness
Shame
Shifting sand

Spiraling
Plummeting
Nowhere to stand

Contempt
Anger
Rising again

Battling
Torment
Mind filled with sin

Searching
Seeking
Reaching for God’s hand

Praying
Yearning
Waiting to land

Forgiveness
Healing
God’s love so grand

Listening
Learning
Shackles of sin disband

Grace
Light
Flowing from God’s hand

Darkness

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them. ~ Isaiah 42:16

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Darkness

Darkness
Shame
Shifting sand

Spiraling
Plummeting
Nowhere to stand

Contempt
Anger
Rising again

Battling
Torment
Mind filled with sin

Searching
Seeking
Reaching for God’s hand

Praying
Yearning
Waiting to land

Forgiveness
Healing
God’s love so grand

Listening
Learning
Shackles of sin disband

Grace
Mercy
Flowing from God’s hand