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Mansion in Your Mind (NF ~ Mansion)

Peace I leave with you;
My peace I give to you;
not as the world gives do I give to you.
Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.
John 14:27

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Coming from a background of abuse and chaos, secrets which have passed away with those who have left this world, I find myself trapped inside my own mind at times. For years I have covered up the pain, anguish, guilt and shame, but as God has shone his glorious light into my heart, the darkness has fled. There are times where satan reminds me of my past, brings up fears and fantasies that don’t belong in rooms within my mind! Thank you Lord that you have overcome so that I too can do the same, in your strength and power! So blessed to have a God that is bigger than me, a God who loves me in spite of myself, a God who knows me inside and out and chases after me anyway!

“Behold, an hour is coming, and has already come, for you to be scattered,
each to his own home, and to leave Me alone;
and yet I am not alone, because the Father is with Me.
“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace.
In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.”
John 16:32-33

Tied to the Ground ~ Charmaine

The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.
Psalm 34:17

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication
with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension,
will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7

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Let Go!!

Consumed with worry
Holding tight to the past
Fearing the future

Let go
Let God

Stuck in the pain
A victim in the game of life
Harboring anger and bitterness

Let go
Let God

Crying out in misery
Actions guided by heartbreak
Words are daggers to the soul

Let go
Let God

Release the burdens
Lighten the millstone that weighs down
Surrender to something bigger

Let go
Let God

Be touched by never-ending grace
Caressed by overflowing love
Filled with constant peace

Let go
Let God

Oh to be Held!

If the LORD had not been my help,
My soul would soon have dwelt in the abode of silence.
If I should say, “My foot has slipped,”
Your lovingkindness, O LORD, will hold me up.
When my anxious thoughts multiply within me,
Your consolations delight my soul.
~ Psalm 94:17-19 ~

Sinking among the waves of emotion
Drowning in a sea of sorrow
Praying for the beacon amidst the darkness
Wanting to be held

Hiding in recesses of my mind
Wandering among thoughts still unknown
Seeking clarity through the storm
Needing to be held

Stumbling through the streets of chaos
Falling to my knees
Hoping for an end to the brokenness
Yearning to be held

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Stuck in the traffic jam of life
Moving in slow motion
Slipping further and further behind
Wishing to be held

Holding it all together
Hitting my head against the wall
Desiring to just let go
Craving to be held

Up or Down

Reality will come! Whether we choose to walk in it or not is a conscious decision each person must make for themselves.  Nothing we hide will remain hidden, nothing we shove on the back burner will be left there, nothing covered up by fake smiles and masks will go unrevealed. God wants us heart and soul, body and mind, and he will do all it takes to strip away the masks, putting a stop to the parade of illusions we tend to paint for ourselves. He wants rip off the band-aids of our wounds, and bring complete healing inside and out. Though the pain of life comes, and often hits pretty hard, it lasts but only a moment, to be replaced by the glorious love, peace and comfort of the One True God!! I am not exempt of putting on a mask to make it through the day, but when the sun sets and my head rests upon the pillow, God speaks his love and truth to my heart, reminding me to stop putting on my best show and to be a living witness to the pain and sorrow that exists in my life and my heart, so that when he brings healing and joy, others will see his marvelous works.

Father God, if it glorifies you, I pray you give me strength to stand in the here and now, to be real with my emotions, bringing you glory through the healing!! I pray that no matter what I or others face, you remind us that you are near, you are here, you are working all things for our good, Father.

May God bless and keep you grounded in reality, showing you peace and joy through your darkest of times. All my love ❤

For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed,
and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open.
~ Luke 8:17 ~

Painted faces masquerade
Breezes blowing here and there
Effortlessly gliding through life
Not what they appear

Painful scars covered up
Masks to hide the tears
Parading up and down
Don’t reveal the fear

Dancing feet scurry by
Twirling delicately each day
Tiptoeing around the darkness
Desperately seeking a way

Holding tight to illusions
Mirrors of perfection held high
Don’t let anyone see
Pray they just pass by

Streets paved with eggshells
Treading ever so lightly
Lest the world cave in
Never reveal the unsightly

Swinging through the air
Up and down they go
Stepping in front of the curtain
Putting forth the best show

God is Here!!

And surely I am with you always,
until the very end of the age.
~ Matthew 28:20b ~

God Is HERE!

Despite the pain
In spite of the brokenness
God is here

In this moment
In heart and soul
God is here

Regardless of feelings
Even with chaotic emotions
God is here

Be still
Heart pouring out
God is here

Synchronous Difficulties

I wait upon the Lord, my soul doth wait,
and in His word I hope.
~ Psalm 130:5 ~

Synchronous Difficulties

Chaos
Trials
Struggles abound
Healing heart exposed once more

Despair
Anxiety
Shifting sands
Perfect illusions shattered

Circumstances
Tribulations
Exploding bombs
Rigid expectations shot down

Prayer
Friendship
Synchronous difficulties
Hoping for peace to come

Light
Strength
Never ending love
God’s mighty hand reaching within

Waiting
Listening
Splintered heart
Standing with bated breath
Be still and know the loving God

Worn ~ Tenth Avenue North

Amazing how music just lines up with the heart and soul, speaking what often times I cannot!  I am worn indeed.  I am praying for strength, for endurance to run the race set before me, for the ability to continue to love though I am so broken, for the chance to shine once again brighter than ever before, yet right now I am so very worn.  Still I cling to the hope and promises of God; promises of a future filled with good and hope (Jeremiah 29:11).

For I have fully satisfied the weary soul,
and I have replenished every sorrowful soul.
~ Jeremiah 31:25