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Life is not Perfect!

To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven.
…A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.
~ Ecclesiastes 3:1 & 4

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Life is not Perfect!

The pain and heartache
They come and they go
Cutting deep
Wounding the soul

Burdens too much to carry
Spirit weighed down
Living in the here and now
Sorrow abounds

Life is not perfect
Nor was it meant to be
A precursor of something better
A realm yet unseen

The heart it beckons
The spirit it yearns
The soul cries out
This world it spurns

Hope lies beyond
High in the heavens above
A continuous fount of life
God’s river of love

Loving arms of comfort
Sweet prayers from thine lips
Peace for the moment
Grief stands eclipsed

Through mercy and grace
The pain subsides
Where once heartache dwelled
Now joy resides

Oh to be Held!

If the LORD had not been my help,
My soul would soon have dwelt in the abode of silence.
If I should say, “My foot has slipped,”
Your lovingkindness, O LORD, will hold me up.
When my anxious thoughts multiply within me,
Your consolations delight my soul.
~ Psalm 94:17-19 ~

Sinking among the waves of emotion
Drowning in a sea of sorrow
Praying for the beacon amidst the darkness
Wanting to be held

Hiding in recesses of my mind
Wandering among thoughts still unknown
Seeking clarity through the storm
Needing to be held

Stumbling through the streets of chaos
Falling to my knees
Hoping for an end to the brokenness
Yearning to be held

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Stuck in the traffic jam of life
Moving in slow motion
Slipping further and further behind
Wishing to be held

Holding it all together
Hitting my head against the wall
Desiring to just let go
Craving to be held

Up or Down

Reality will come! Whether we choose to walk in it or not is a conscious decision each person must make for themselves.  Nothing we hide will remain hidden, nothing we shove on the back burner will be left there, nothing covered up by fake smiles and masks will go unrevealed. God wants us heart and soul, body and mind, and he will do all it takes to strip away the masks, putting a stop to the parade of illusions we tend to paint for ourselves. He wants rip off the band-aids of our wounds, and bring complete healing inside and out. Though the pain of life comes, and often hits pretty hard, it lasts but only a moment, to be replaced by the glorious love, peace and comfort of the One True God!! I am not exempt of putting on a mask to make it through the day, but when the sun sets and my head rests upon the pillow, God speaks his love and truth to my heart, reminding me to stop putting on my best show and to be a living witness to the pain and sorrow that exists in my life and my heart, so that when he brings healing and joy, others will see his marvelous works.

Father God, if it glorifies you, I pray you give me strength to stand in the here and now, to be real with my emotions, bringing you glory through the healing!! I pray that no matter what I or others face, you remind us that you are near, you are here, you are working all things for our good, Father.

May God bless and keep you grounded in reality, showing you peace and joy through your darkest of times. All my love ❤

For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed,
and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open.
~ Luke 8:17 ~

Painted faces masquerade
Breezes blowing here and there
Effortlessly gliding through life
Not what they appear

Painful scars covered up
Masks to hide the tears
Parading up and down
Don’t reveal the fear

Dancing feet scurry by
Twirling delicately each day
Tiptoeing around the darkness
Desperately seeking a way

Holding tight to illusions
Mirrors of perfection held high
Don’t let anyone see
Pray they just pass by

Streets paved with eggshells
Treading ever so lightly
Lest the world cave in
Never reveal the unsightly

Swinging through the air
Up and down they go
Stepping in front of the curtain
Putting forth the best show

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Hear my prayer, LORD; listen to my cry for mercy.
When I am in distress, I call to you, because you answer me.
~ Psalm 86:6-7 ~

Sleep is a Mystery!

Hurting heart
Racing thoughts
Running round and round
Could it have been different?
What then?
Lost in the crevices of pain
Tossing to and fro
Sleep is a mystery to me

Jumpy and anxious
Wondering what to do
Seeking guidance from the Lord
Yet round and round I go
Turning from one side to another
Staring aimlessly at the dark
Scenarios playing like movies in my mind
Sleep is a mystery to me

Constant state of alertness
Hearing every little noise
Desiring Your peace oh God
Still round and round I go
When will this resolve?
Will I ever be the same?
Sadness instead of slumber
Sleep is a mystery to me

Come as You Are! ~ Crowder

Come to me all you who labor and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me,
for I am gentle and humble in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy
And my burden is light.
~ Matthew 11:28-30

Come as You Are!

Broken
Hurting
Ashamed
Come as you are

Confused
Angry
Lost
Come as you are

Bitter
Wandering
Sorrowful
Come as you are

Healing found
Hope renewed
Joy restored
Come as you are

Freedom from bonds
Light to lead the way
Mercy free flowing
Come as you are

Sit in the arms of the Lord
Find rest under the shadow of His wings
Be filled to overflowing
Just come as you are

Greater ~ MercyMe

Everyone wrestles with the world, with its perceptions and views of what and who we are to be. We often wrestle with doubt, fear, hurt, condemnation, and anxiety. However, God is greater than all that we face, feel, think, or wrestle with! He is the Victor, and through Him we find freedom and victory no matter what we battle.

May the peace of God surround you and fill you with the knowledge that you are God’s child, His joy and His creation, and He loves you and will be with you through it all.

God bless and keep you always!
All my love ❤

Peace Please Come Soon

Do not be anxious about anything,
But in every situation,
By prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving
Present your requests to God.
And the peace of God,
which transcends all understanding
Will guard your hearts and minds on Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7

Peace Please Come Soon

Tired and frail
Running in the dark
Reaching for air
Peace please come soon

Waiting for the light
Praying fervently
Seeking the still small voice
Peace please come soon

Inner turmoil
Fear an ever present reality
Floundering hope
Peace please come soon

Holding tight to God
His truth singing over me
Though I am weak, God is strong
Peace please come soon

Wandering

Wow! How life can sometimes chew you up and spit you out! When we wander the field of our minds, we can often get stuck there, feeling as if hope is a fairytale spun by those with the “perfect” life. But in reality, there is no perfect life. Life is filled with ups and downs, chaos and peace, beauty and ugliness, joy and sorrow. Life has unexpected storms that can knock us down and keep us down for the count. But we are so richly blessed that we have a God who, despite the feelings and emotions, reminds us He is with us!! We have a God that holds us tight in our wanderings and for that I am ever so thankful….for even when I don’t feel it, I know He is there, somewhere!

“I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away,
bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick;
but I will destroy the fat and the strong,
and feed them in judgment.”
~ Ezekiel 34:16

Wandering

Anger erodes my thoughts
Directed aimlessly in the dark
There’s nowhere to turn
I am lost in uncertainty
Deception is everywhere
Victim to my emotions
My heart is broken
My soul lays shattered and torn
A vault sealed against further hurt
Yet it surrounds me
Making me face its fury
I am weak
I am tired
Faith and hope are fading
Peace is nonexistent
Lord bless me amidst the wandering